Horoscopes...and Life

I've started out today by not getting anything done, but in the end I guess I have finally gotten around to doing some important stuff. My horoscope this morning was "With articulate Mercury in your stylish sign, you should find it much easier to be heard (and understood). And, if you choose honesty over evasion, you'll get even further mileage. I always read horoscopes because I get a kick out of the times they are dead on or as far from the truth as they could possibly get. As with this one, however, I've started to look at them and find things I can work on in my life. I've noticed that I do tend to be evasiv about things. Whether out of fear of rejection, not knowing how to say it, not being sure what I want, or something else entirely. I tend to decide things fairly quickly, but being oblivious tends to make it hard for me because I am never expecting things. I have really had a hard time this semester because after all of high school with no one interested in dating me, I have had far too many guys that want a relationship all of a sudden. This has been quite a struggle for me because I have no experience with dealing with this sort of thing and I am sooo focused on everything I am going through in my life. I really do not want to date right now...partly because I am tired of dealing with all the drama that seems to surround it and admittedly partly because I can't date the only person I would be interested in dating right now. {Yes...that IS a can't, so don't tell me to ask him. lol.} I have noticed that I seem to reconsider this decision every time I come across someone who wants a relationship with me, but in the end I do need to put myself first and a lot of the time they need a friend more than a girlfriend anyway. People seem so obsessed with the idea that they have to date someone, but not for the right reasons. Just to have a boyfriend/girlfriend...a relationship should be about caring about the other person and wanting to have them in your life. Also, you need to be comfortable with yourself before you can have a relationship with someone. Too many people seem to think a relationship will fix their problems or that their problems won't seem as bad if they have a girlfriend/boyfriend. I love people and I love being able to talk through problems and just hang out and have fun. Thankfully, I think I have finally reached a place where I feel comfortable just being myself and being honest about things. Sure, it may hurt someone's feelings on occasion, but it hurts a lot worse in the long run if you avoid it. In the end, it doesn't matter what anyone thinks of me. I am who I am and God knows that and loves me. If the people in my life can't, then maybe they shouldn't be in my life. Who are we to not like anyone? Everyone is worthy of our love and compassion.